Back to God
Let’s face it, we are going back to religion one way or another
We never left it
Just forgot
All the subtlety
We seem wired for it
Not wired like a machine is wired
But pulsing wires
More like worms
All these depressing pieces about trying to find meaning in meaningless things
my sex life after fifty is like an unhinged washing machine!
why I left my husband for a homeless magician
why my family are like the free toys you used to get in cereal
It is too hard to make meaning on your own
Impossible, in fact
Crazy, in reality
There is no I,
Sold along with our negative number
Our debt, guilt,
Satan is a bank manager
You move your body and you remember things
You wonder are memories stored in different poses
Or are they stored at different temperatures
And you wonder why these moments
And what did I learn
And all you can do is try to be better
A little bit
Not mad better, just a bit better
The right habits
The thing that underpins the other habits
Consistency?
Make thought and action coincide while never forgetting the fault
The false stitch to say there is no competing with God
Dürer’s angel is smiling and defeated at the same time
A painting of a sunset is not a sunset
Who do you want to be?
Do you remember that time you saw this village
And every evening they would come out and watch the sun set together
Sitting on the beach
And you thought this is most incredible thing
And at the other end, and, well, you tell this story too much,
But the man who was very well-meaning and really very beautiful and kind
Saying that he couldn’t look at the moon because he felt so guilty
And they put you in prison so that you can’t see the sun or the moon
And too much sun makes you manic
And too much moon makes you a werewolf
And when Hobbes said man is a wolf to man
He meant that men get sad and they get antisocial
And this is the problem of the wolf (but actual wolves are very thoughtful to other wolves, and they probably think, if one of them is being a dick, that wolf is a man to wolf)
They are only on their own when they are looking for new wolves